Life in the Land of the Rising Sun

Monday, November 05, 2007

Another Selba Tag

Yes, folks, Selba has tagged me again. This time, however, it's short and to the point. Basically, I have to come up with the age I would most like to go back and revisit.

Sounds easy, doesn't it? It's not. It's bloody tough.

I wouldn't want to go back to my early childhood. Lack of responsibility was nice. Lack of freedom wasn't. Go back to life on a leash? No thanks.

I wouldn't want to go back to elementary school. I was proud to be years ahead of my classmates academically. In fact, it went straight to my head. I screwed around in class, read books intended for much older kids, made my teachers mad, got top marks on my report cards and top scores on my achievement tests, cavalierly demanded that my stories be read and my plays performed in the classroom, got praised a lot, and sighed at the ignorance of the other kids even while trying to play with them. A first grader can get away with that. A fifth grader can't. Go back to being a lab curiosity or a circus sideshow? Not bloody likely.

I wouldn't want to go back to junior high school. Junior high serves one purpose only: to humiliate kids in front of their peers. Go through having my ego trampled into the dust again? Only if I could meet myself and pound some sense into my skull.

I wouldn't want to go back to senior high school. There were some really good times and some really bad times. I had some successes, and I made some colossal blunders. Still, I almost hate to think what would happen if I had a second chance. There are some things I definitely would do differently now that I know better. However, changing things would make me turn out a very different person, and I'm not sure I'd like that. Muck with this turning point in my life? Not a good idea. As Captain Kirk said in Star Trek V (the only memorable line from that movie), "I NEED MY PAIN!"

I wouldn't want to go back to my early college days. It was kind of like mid elementary school all over again. I was doing well academically, and I generally got along with people in a superficial sense, but I realized I had nothing whatsoever in common with my peers. That brought my old arrogance to the surface again. I had grown up and entered society only to find that society was annoyingly shallow and trite. I looked around and saw nothing but cliches and stereotypes. Even worse, those stereotypes kept urging me to "get with it" and join them. Frankly, people in general were really starting to piss me off. I hunkered down with my circle of good friends and tried to ignore the rest of the world, but it didn't help. Go back to feeling bitter all the time? I'd rather have all my teeth pulled.

I wouldn't want to go back to my university days. As with high school, it was a major turning point, and it was one I got through after many hard knocks. There were some very good times, particularly during the last year or two. There were also a lot of occasions when I knew I should jump right but somehow jumped left anyway and wound up falling into a deep ditch. What I found in those ditches, however, had a strong influence on who I am and what path I came to follow in life. If I could go back, I know I would want to do some things very differently, but I know I would regret the outcome. I'd rather not deal with that. Strictly hands off.

I wouldn't want to go back to my early years in Japan. I did what I wanted to do, what I'd intended to do, what I thought was right, and I enjoyed some success. I then found out that that success had been totally meaningless. There's no point in doing it again...except maybe not to do it at all, but then what would I do?

The next few years after that are a toss-up. The main event was my meeting, courting, winning, and then marrying my wife. If I were forced to live part of my life over again, that would probably be it, but it was often a very stressful period. Even a good thing can give you ulcers. It's a precious time to me, but I'd rather it remained a good memory. I'm almost afraid that, if I went through it again, I might start finding fault with it.

That leaves just the time since my children came into my life. I really don't need to live through that again. I'm still living it now.


Amidrin wishes to go back to age 22 to correct back some mistakes in life.
Lemonjude wishes to go back to age 6 to enjoy kid’s life.
Hui Sia wishes to go back to age 16 to meet her first lover again.
Giddy Tiger wishes to go back to a childhood life with no worries in the world.
Rinnah wishes she could turn back time to the happiest days of her life.
Ehon doesn't wanna go anywhere.
Chen wanna go back to age 19 to take a different pathway in life.
Selba wishes to go back to the time where she could persuade her parents not to move to Indonesia.
The Moody Minstrel doesn't want to mess with the Tapestry of Fate.

There's probably not much point, but I'll tag:
Don Snabulus
Um Naief goes on!



  • Thanks for doing the tag.

    Funny part, most people would love to go back to their earlier life but not you... You must be in the comfort zone right now :)

    Good for you!!!

    But seriously, if I also have to go back to my elementary, secondary or high school times, I rather prefer to be in my position now.

    By Blogger Selba, at 8:56 PM  

  • Hmmm, I don't prefer ANY age w/in my life... College was probably the best, but I had to work so much (more than 20 hrs per week w/work study & regular jobs) I couldn't do any extra-curricular activities...or do networking or anything career-related.

    But in the past?
    I think the 1920's would've might've been fun, some folks didn't have a "stick up their ...." if ya know what I mean....I think I would have liked the '40's too and have liked to have lived in San Francisco, or LA during those times-before the big real estate boom & Silcon Valley existed. Probably the 40's would've been better for jobs for women, and they had penicillin!

    By Blogger ladybug, at 11:09 PM  

  • I want to return to the age of reason.

    By Blogger Pandabonium, at 7:52 AM  

  • I was the same as you at the elementary school point - sighing at the ignorance of my classmates as I deigned to play with them...the shallowness and triteness of which you speak annoyed me the most in high school.

    Unlike you, though, I finally equalised with my peers in university, which is the time I chose for my tag.

    I like how you reviewed the reasons why you wouldn't go back, and I see where you are coming from. It sounds like where you are now is the best place to be :)

    By Blogger Olivia, at 8:17 AM  

  • Like you there are few times I wold care to revisit. However, there are some very brief times in my life which I enjoyed immensely. That would have been any time I had a girlfriend. However, like what you say, having a girfriend can also be very stressful. I don't know why that is. Perhaps it is the constant need for your mates approval. Marriage signfies that you have won that approval, but I doubt very much that not making any effort would quickly undo that.

    By Anonymous Dave, at 8:47 AM  

  • I don’t want to return to any age of my life. Past has past.
    Right now, I want to know how will be my future life. :-P

    By Anonymous Spirit, at 3:39 PM  

  • You should've tried starting Junior High less than a month after Laurie died. The added layers of stress and totally freaked parents only added to the experience. I owe my life and sanity to Rush.

    By Blogger Phillipa Scratch, at 6:03 AM  

  • Though my experience is quite different from yours, my reaction is very similar - there was no "golden age" to return to.

    By Anonymous nikkipolani, at 1:22 PM  

  • Selba that nasty tagger! ;)

    I wouldn't want to relive myl ife expect for a few "moments" here and there.

    By Blogger Swinebread, at 11:24 PM  

  • very interesting and i like how you analyzed everything.

    your and olivia's intelligence frightens me! as well it should... was that even proper grammar?!!

    why is it that i lose all hope of showing a clever bone in my body when i'm around really intelligent ppl. eeerrr... probably why i wasn't good at teaching english... ;)

    thanks for the tag even tho i'm only now seeing it. i liked your post on it much better than mine.

    By Blogger Um Naief, at 3:17 AM  

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